If God is truly merciful then when we die it's lights out. Having realized this I'm not afraid any more. God will take care of me.

Eternal life? No greater or more appalling catastrophe could befall a human consciousness.

https://medium.com/crows-feet/its-been-fun-8d22826f8473

and

https://medium.com/illumination/how-to-believe-in-god-even-if-you-are-an-atheist-110fe05a119c