Nice to see you again Sidra!
I'm in my 70s now and I think about death about as much as I thought about sex when I was in my 20s. I don't know that everything is beautiful. For example, The planar fasciitis I am dealing with now is not beautiful.
But I've had a good life so I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of suffering though because who isn't. But I'm having a great time with my music and other things so I'm like, "God, we can let this run for a few more years, OK?" Even though sometimes it's like a story that has gone on too long and you wish the storyteller would STFU already.
I go to church almost every Sunday but I think when we die it's just, lights out. If God is merciful that's what it is.